Follicles are looking good!

Well today has been a little stressful to say the least! CD12, went in for an ultrasound to see how many and how big my follicles are. I have several follicles but only 3 that measured big enough :/ (I guess that's better than none) I was given a trigger shot (HCG) which will induce ovulation, and was told that I will experience pregnancy like symptoms. I was thinking Ohhh dear gussy, not only is the 2ww going to kill me but on top of that I have pregnancy symptoms which could be just from the shot. I came home from the dr and I think I had a small meltdown, I am becoming very irritated with little things, my headaches and feeling sick are still present. We go tomorrow morning for my husband to give a sample of his "boys" as he calls them lol they will be washed and only the best selected. I will then have to take them to the hospital and was told to put them between my Breast....they will definitely keep warm there haha Once at the hospital they will perform the procedure (IUI), which I was told it shouldn't be to painful. From there it will be the awful 2ww, every symptom I have I will probably think I'm pregnant, but won't get my hopes up since my chances aren't the greatest. We are traveling home to be with family and friends and I'm hoping that will keep my mind off wondering if I'm pregnant. Throughout this whole process and the 2 years we have been trying I have kept it in the lords hands. I always have my doubts and there have been times when I just want to throw my hands in the air and say "I give up" I refuse to do that! I know the good lord has a plan to give us our miracle, it's just a matter of time. He knows we are ready, he knows we will be excellent parents and will love him/her unconditionally! I want to thank everyone who has offered their thoughts and prayers, we wouldn't be able to do this without you all.

God bless

Feeling a little irritated today

Today is CD9 and I think I may be feeling more side effects :/ For several days now I have been feeling my ovaries working very hard, Hoping for some good news come wed when I have my ultrasound! Not sure why, today I am feeling very irritable little things are getting under my skin grrr I am starting to have those good ol hot flashes I was warned about, I thought it was hot it my house but after I looked at the thermostat I think it's just me haha These prenatal are also taking a toll on my stomach ugh I feel so bloated :( I also believe I am gaining weight noooooooo it can't be...but it's true, sadly enough. Not to much longer and my DH will be home, I'm so excited...I just hope my irritability is gone by then for his sake lol. This is my last night for clomid, praying they did the job *fingers crossed*

God Bless

I think my ovaries are working overtime!

Here we are CD7 and I am feeling this clomid going to work haha I haven't had any terrible side effects, headaches and feeling nauseous are the only 2 complaints I have. I know all the worry, side effects and heartache are all worth the end result! I have been feeling my ovaries working really hard today lol I have some mild cramping but but nothing I'm not used to, I mean I gave birth before, I can handle anything! I go in for an ultrasound in 5 days, praying for good follicles **fingers crossed"


God bless

Starting Clomid tonight

Today is the day!! I start my clmoid tonight! I am hoping for the best and praying for this to work so that we can be blessed with our little miracle. I woke up ready to take on the day, got lots accomplished even a trip to the commissary ugh. I wanted to get the most of my list done before I started this med, not knowing how bad the side effects are going to be. I heard many but 3 that I worry most about are, blurred vision, feeling nauseated and cyst forming. I am alone for several more days and to have blurred vision wouldn't be good! Overall I just hate feeling sick, but I guess I should get used to it since that's a major side effect of pregnancy :) The worry of cyst forming is another major concern because I am prone to ovarian cyst, it becomes very painful for me and almost always lands me in the ER :/ So...I'm praying for the best result! I'm off to take a hot bath, I take my first dose in 45 min :) wish me luck!

God Bless

Most of the important things in the world have been accomplished by people who have kept on trying when there seemed to be no hope at all."
-- Dale Carnegie

Cycle day 4 :)

Well, today is cycle day 4 eekkk I start the clomid tomorrow! I have been emotionally alright up until today ughhhh not sure why I am so mixed of emotions today. As tomorrow approaches I am becoming nervous lol have no clue why :/ I think it's because I hear so many horror stories about clomid, one being "clomid-icide" haha that's so not funny. I am becoming certain that some people don't think before they start giving advice to a woman who is infertile. I've been hearing "it will happen when you least expect it" "your trying to hard"  grrr now come on already, I'm not new at this you know! I know it's only been 2 years, but that is 2 years of heartache that I have felt... not you.!  Why oh why do I want to cry again lol this is driving me nuts!! I think I may just stay off facebook for the duration of my clomid cycle :)

God bless

“I can't change the direction of the wind, but I can adjust my sails to always reach my destination.”
Jimmy Dean

What a day it was!

Well today has been good other than having  a bit of a scare :/ other than that I have been trying to stay busy since my husband is gone. Still feeling crappy and in terrible pain today. Had to contact my dr about a situation that happened and I'm to follow up on mon before I start my clmoid on tue. It's really tough going through all this alone :( Hoping for good news mon so that I can start my meds, I'm ready for this to all be over and have out little miracle in our hands. This has been a tough 2 years and I'm sure the good lord is going to bless us soon, I'm going to be patient and let god do his job. I think a hot shower and a good movie is in my near future. Off to relax hoping this pain goes away very soon, it really feels like sharks are attcking my uterus haha. Tomorrow has got to be better **fingers crossed**   God Bless